of my 18 years alive, the only thing i've really learnt is that life is weird. haha. i think ive said this ten thousand times and i might say it another ten thousand times, but LIFE REALLY IS WEIRD. and scary, and saddening, and unpredictable, and torturous, and heartbreaking.

I really never know what to make of things that happen to me. White lies or blunt lies, special treatment or perceived special treatment, attention or no attention, satisfaction or dissatisfaction. AH whats this and whats that?! so what if its like that? and so what if its not like that? does that mean anything? i dont feel sad anymore. i dont feel that affected anymore. am i becoming less and less human?

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK. wake up stephanieeeeeeeeeee!

my office got fitted in with more shelves over the weekend. because, as a law firm, you obviously need ALOT of shelves for ALOT of files. haha. they squeezed shelves into EVERY available space. and the result was an office that would prolly give anyone or everyone claustrophobia. haha. so this big boss asked me this,

GS(Boss): So do you feel claustrophobic?
Stephanie: Yes a little

when your boss asks you that you feel abit of concern from him right? oh but no he went on with this

GS: But you will get used to it right?

T.T

ANYWAY, dearest old brother has gone back to australia! HAVE FUN AT UNIVERSITY if youre reading this! : D

someone really help meeeeeee. its killing me, stuck at the back of my mind, creeping out from time to time to slowly eat me alive.