ahhhhhhhhh im in school now. just finished chinese lesson, waiting for time to pass before attending the college day rehearsal. ah sucks. i hate school. i feel DEEP hatred for school suddenly. after thinking about homework, schoolwork, exams AGAIN, TESTS and more tests and more work, i HATE school even more.

i know i have great friends in school (and outside school). but the thing is, ive grown moreee dislike for school now, so much that i dont really even feel like coming to school for the sake of meeting friends. i mean like smtms you think about secondary school, den you'll go like " the reason why i liked school was becuase of my friends". but now it doesnt feel that way cos the dislike for school cancels out everything else thats good about coming to school... life seems to be such a chore.

anyways, we're getting back our results now. its extremely weird listening and getting to know other pples results. ahha. you think about certain stuff. and then you think of other stuff.. ah wells different people have different expectations. but then i just think that, expectations are a really subjective thing and that its not nice to really go out and express your expectations of your results esp after knowing other pples. i mean it seems weird smtms. like ah i shant go into details.

haha recently ive been writing extremely long entries. like i used to write few liners. i th ink its because i talk more about hwo i feel now. which sorta feels strange cos people do come and read andddddddddd it'll be weirddd. haha k i assumed that people do come and read. whether or not they do would be another issue, but i wont bother about that anyway.

k im hopping from topic to topic. im watching the j drama tokyo friends now. its kinda nice. the main male characters kinda nice. ahha. the female lead actress is one of my favourite singers. well, the shows about her moving from her small fishing village to tokyo! but throughout the show, the characters often question their aims in life (if they have thme) or they try to find what they want in life. and it sorta made me think about stuff. i mean theres got to be more to life than what im seeing now right? i cant go on dreading school forever. it's kiling me. and i dont want to go on dreading whatever i have to do forever. but i know i'll never realyl be happy unless i find answers to some of these qns i have in my mind. and nothing can make me truly happy. the only wya to be happy is to be happ yfrom inside. haha.

K I MAKE NO SENSE. so read if you like. leave it if you like. its just thoughts.