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i realised, all this while, i've just been going with the flow of 'life'? the life my school gives me. the countless tests, overemphasis placed on the coming o levels, more tests more homework. ssp and more ssp. teachers randering, going on about wat little time we have left before the exams and how much more time we need to complete the whole syllabus. the mock prelims and the actual prelims. chinese o levels in LESS than one month . . . . .

i dont think im doing anything i like. but what do i like to do actually?

i wonder whether i can really do well for o levels actually. but then again, why do we have to take the o levels. its not that impt after all. looking at the through train programmes and all.

ok, i think, i'd channel all this negative energy into motivation to study hard. and achieve the high goals (which i donno why i want to achieve but which i dont really want to work hard for).