i can never aptly describe how i feel. most of the time, i just feel so muddled up, confused and unsure. and when i try to think it all through, it gets A LITTLE CLEARER, and then more questions pop up and it just becomes another mesh of unanswerable questions. i think in circles. and i speak in truncated fragments.

like denise, i really hope the end of a levels and post a levels wont just be an overhyped and overly anticipated time. i really hope i wont end up stuck at home and dreading the silence and the sound of me typing on my keyboard only. im sure there'll be outings and stuff.. but you CANT possibly go out like EVERY SINGLE DAY right? my pockets arent bottomless pits filled with golden coins.. and then theres the trouble of getting everyone to be free on a single day if you want liek mass outings. hahaha. AIKS nvm that luh. i shall leave it to LATER.

stuff me is going to do after A's?!?!
- IM GONNA TAKE JAP, and def driving since im LEGAL now.
- SLLEEEEPPP ALL DAY LONG. i am totally deprived of sleep, having not woken up late at all in the past two and a half weeks. cheers to me i've never done this before. and last night's slp was TERRIBLE.
- im gonna go prawning! hahahaha. though i dont really eat prawns.
- NIGHT SAFARI-ing dont think they have white tigers there.
- gonna get a jobbbb?
- pick up e guitar?
- DO A X STITCH
- prom shopping
- ... . .. . . .. . .

everything involves money. except sleeping T.T

will dreams ever come true?
i hope some do at least.
people tell me that my worst fears will never come true. but who can be absolutely sure they wont? life's so predicitably unpredictable. SOMEONE JUST SAVE ME.