i need a time machine really badly.

recently, ive been bothering myself with alot of "what ifs" and "whys". i keep wondering bout decisions ive made, things ive done subconsiously and things that i didnt really want to do but had to anyway. the things ive been thinking about mostly pertain to a certain incident but its just been bothering me so. thats why i need a time machine!!! haha. i can den go back through time and mayb change my decision! if i happen to decide that my first choice was better, i can go back again to change everything. in that way, life would be deviod of regret. ahh how i wish.

but right now, im living out the consequences of my actions. i didnt really know it'll be liek that at that time. looking back, i really dont know why i acted that way. this is when i start thinking. haha. "what if everything stayed the same, and i didnt do this or that? things would have or could have turned out to be extremely different" but then i'll have to pinch myself in the face and tell myself, it has already been done and it cannot be undone.

ughh im killing myself doing all this thinking. but time will heal it all right? after a week or two, with my trying my best not to do anything, everything will fade away. everything should fade away.

ohh noooo, my heads spinning. i hate this.